Week 21 – 73 Weeks to Go

This would be end of Week 21. Winter passes are closed now. Spirits communicate heart to heart.

I am lettered to distraction. Less brain capacity available to tackle the day. Missed a long stretch of medication. Maybe it was something ischemicky. Or maybe not. Extremes of physiology, brain activity, stress and it is back to Absolute Twisted Zero.

This is like musical chairs. It is not my decision which new patterns and routines are swept away. When the dust settles we’ll evaluate which routines are intact. Now I am resting. It is not silence. It is quiet.

On vacation. Week 21 – 73 Weeks to Go on the Port Gamble – Talkeetna Trail

Mesdames High Commissioner & Special Rapporteur

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Mrs. Raquel Rolnik
United Nations Special Rapporteur
Mrs. Navanethem Pillay
Honorable UN High Commissioner Human Rights

Dear Honorable Mesdames High Commissioner & Special Rapporteur:

Please accept this contact via email. I am legally communicatively disabled and awarded the right to communicate by email and TTY for legal purposes in my state. On my small economically privileged island community three disabled adults in public housing have died in the past 24 months. These deaths coincided with construction and/or closure of only two housing facilities for less than 75 residents. This is a statistical extravagance. You will not read of this in our local public media.

The local NGO, private management company, contractors, developers, state agencies and HUD, their officers and assigns, act without basic knowledge of due process, American civil rights laws & traditions, and parliamentary procedure. Like all human action based in ignorance the consequences are sometimes benign and often destructive.

We, the recipients of the public largess funded through our involuntary contributions, must surrender our assets for eligibility under Medicaid & SSI. If we lose our housing, we lose our medical benefits and income, too. My first three years as a resident, the US Postal Service returned all my personal mail to senders. We are held hostage, often, to the most barbaric treatment.

The tip of the iceberg rarely discloses the extant of the danger below the surface from view. Not all these dangers are invisible. Deliberate and willful destruction of personal property, retaliation, bodily injury, permanent disfigurement and death. Here, where everything looks pretty. We are not a statistical anomaly.

I am sorry you are not scheduled to visit Washington state. Our state, and my community, are reputed to be among the best providers of public housing in our country. This is the frightening horror of the nightmare. If we are the best, the rest is unconscionable. Please, on behalf of Washington’s disabled, indigent and seniors, look at the whole iceberg.

Abuse and retaliation, injury and death are no secret to professional members of my small well to do community. It is no secret to tenants. There will be no new public housing for my district for many years. This affects our most vulnerable disabled, indigent, seniors and families.

Our regional housing board invested public moneys in high end real estate speculation. In the third world American journalists would label this corruption. Here we call it a poor investment decision, if it is noted at all. Attorneys for regional public housing partners swear under oath that we receive safe, habitable and reasonable accommodations for our disabilities. This is a fabrication.

My housing management company, Legacy Management Group, and local NGO Housing Resources Board have the technology to reasonably accommodate my legal communicative and cognitive disabilities. They do not. Consequently, I am continually at risk for eviction. I have requested an electronic rent receipt monthly. Local advocates, attorneys, government case managers have likewise made the same request. These requests go ignored. Yet we have three full-time employees managing less than 50 public housing apartment units. Broken glass, dead rats and garbage where the public will not look are the usual.

This is the tip of the iceberg. I am neither an attorney, a government analyst or an accountant. I am a disabled American, who like many disabled American fought at home or abroad for many of the good things we all could enjoy in the world today. I have survived a brain injury. I will unlikely survive public housing. I urge you to look at the whole iceberg on behalf of millions of vulnerable Americans.

Transmittal
WA State Attorney General
WA State Secretary of State
WA State Governor
Individually, WA State Legislators

Gimp, Philosopher, Activist, American

To Whom It May Concern. This is my request under the Telecommunications Act, The Rehab Act, Civil Rights Act and the Americans with Disabilities Act for equal public access to the utilities and services offered by corporations doing business in Washington. My understanding is that the state is responsible under the Revised Code of Washington for enforcing equal public access to the utilities publicly offered all Washingtonians.

For many years I have been awarded by the State of Washington under RCW & WAC a Necessary Supplemental Accommodation (NSA) for communicative assistance via email & TTY. One would think a communicative disability presumes supplemental accommodation. Not so. My understanding is that I am the first to be so awarded in the Bremerton DSHS Service District.

Theoretically, my NSA preserves my rights to due process, equal access in federally and state funded facilities, and the same or similar services as others without communicative disabilities. This is not so. To my knowledge I am the first person in Washington state to successfully file an electronic human rights complaint. Prior to review of my Complaint the former Director of WA Human Rights Commission told me in writing that the reason I’m denied equal access is likely because of the means with which I ask. I believe this is so, too.

According to published peer review studies by HUD 50% or more of communicatively disabled Americans are less likely to receive public housing than similar non-disabled Americans. This is true. Today in America we have excellent technology available that will overcome many of these barriers. This is called a smart phone. US military neuro-psychiatrists have used PDA’s as assistive devices with TBI for more than a decade. Smart phones have been shown to reduce care hours and medical costs by as much as 50%.

My caregivers and I are medically prescribed smart phones to assist with my independent living. For the past 24 months I have attempted to contact Verizon, AT&T & Apple to learn about disabled rates and programs. When I have failed to negotiate any means of communicating with these corporations via email and TTY I have asked caregivers and other health care professionals to assist. They have had limited success as well. Eventually, My caregiver was able to receive an ‘application’ from AT&T.

My understanding is that 1) AT&T requires a certificate of disability. I have two; 2) I am nearly certain that because I receive Medicaid and SSI that AT&T will require a cosigner; 3) AT&T will then offer me a “Deaf Package” for $45/month minus the telephone & tx. Like millions of legally disabled Americans I am Hard of Hearing (HOH). I am not a little bit Deaf; 4) I will then be required to set a precedent with ATT & others on behalf of all HOH Americans and myself.

This is my request for Necessary Supplemental Accommodation. My conversations with Apple executive offices confirm that there is no assistive or disability services contact who coordinates accounts on behalf of the legally disabled. Therefore, I require additional necessary assistance please. Otherwise I have no access to request access. I am asking for someone to walk me through the process and provide me the necessary means to establish this medically prescribed and medically necessary services. I understand that I will be credited the cost of my phone and my monthly contract fee through my DSHS/COPES participation.

Therefore, I have budgeted the capital and operating expenses to begin. I need assistance making this happen, please. As many of you are aware, my rehabilitation routine is strenuous. I need the communicative ability that you and your families take for granted. I need this on behalf of the millions of legally disabled Americans who cannot write to you. The Catch 22 is that no normally legally disabled individual could possibly negotiate the mechanisms of application for a Deaf or any other kind of account.

Last, but not most least ridiculously, a separate application must be completed for each telephone. As you can see from the appended draft proposal abstract, I have two caregivers employed at most all times. I have a supervising physical therapist. I have a physiatrist and medical rehab supervising physician. I have a case manager, a community advocate and an attorney. This is what it takes to be legally disabled and survive in Washington state. Communication with most of my support team is mandated by State and Federal law.

Alternatively, in the only way I am able to figure things out, I figure I should contact the State Human Rights Directors in all other 49 States and ask as a friend of the Human Rights of Communicatively Disabled Washingtonians that they assist me in this, yet another simple and necessary precedent. In advance I am grateful for your consideration of this dilemma. (e. signature under RCW & WAC for Necessary Supplemental Accommodation).

Transmittal

Apple Executive Offices
Verizon Executive Offices
AT&T Executive Offices
WA State Utility Commissioners
23 Legislative District Represenatatives
Governor Gregoire & Senior Staff

Silence is Powerful

Silence is Powerful. It says a lot. Everybody Else makes it perfectly clear it is a privilege to live here. Maybe it would be better some place else. This would be another quality of the space Here.

If this Here has any Meaning then it will endure In Time. No Time. No Silence. Silence says a lot.

Guiding Between The Lines

Fortunately I cannot control destiny. Honestly I don’t think I have the maturity. I would get upset and rearrange destiny. I would feel badly and rearrange what was already rearranged arrangements. Everybody Else would get dizzy coming and going in fate.

I’m not sure my fate is entirely sealed. But it is pretty close I think. I can Guide Between The Lines. A conscience is required. Mine comes and goes. I don’t know if this is a sign of maturity, too. Maybe I notice it more. This is called a Quandary. Quandaries are manageable in the Deep of Absolute Twisted Zero.

A Veritable Quandary is rarely manageable. I managed one for many months. It is a big job. It was Absolutely Deep. And sometimes very Twisted. It is not polite to discuss the Zeroes. Today is called a Day of Rearranged Arrangements. Someone is messing with Fate. I don’t Know how that works.

I Know I went swimming and didn’t swim. I didn’t go to PT. I napped. I know I raced to Meet a Friend I didn’t Meet. Then I met with a caregiver who is leaving. I Know because I am helping him leave. I wrote him an outstandingly True letter of recommendation. Then I Know we read the letter together and reminded him it was True. I Know this.

Out of Absolute Twisted Zero Everything Else aches. My Bff Pain is camped on my stoop. Everybody Else was invited to the Christmas Party. Everybody Else will say I make it too hard to be invited to the Christmas Party because I do not answer my phone. It is not very hard to send Some Body Else an email I think.

I won’t try to control Destiny. I am Guiding Between The Lines. This is the Middle Way. No day is lost Guiding Between The Lines.

I Believe In Everything

I Believe in Everything. From the ridge tops there is a view of Everything Else. At Absolute Twisted Zero it is cold. The North Wind strikes third growth fir like strings. Pondersa bring up bass. Hundred foot trees sway like tall grass in fields

Light snow’s gift in the night. From frozen peaks Deep Seeing Techniques look at Return. Return means Turning Point. This is not arithmetic. It is not adding and subtracting elemental outlines.

Turning Points don’t matter what’s left and what is gone. When Everybody Else has Everything Else I will still have my Essentials. You need Essentials from one Turning Point to another. In Twisted Zero the shortest Turning Point between two distances is Time Alive. This is one step closer to the Truth.

Trees dance crazy normal. They have Time. At 3500 feet wind howls cold and scrapes my lungs. Through a ridgeline crack the Great River shines. Long December rays light 5,000 foot cliffs. Highlight Deep Shadows. Rows of columbaria stretch back to the Great Mother. She has no Doppleganger. Ancestors speak to me from Great Wilderness.

Deep Listening Techniques Follow Deep Difficulty. These reveal the Grandmother’s sacrifices. Her Time shaped Her Lives. Now Here I am Alive. A child of the Human Animal Father of Man. Acts of conscience run through my genes like a North Wind in the Great Canyon. It is my veins and in my bones. I am connected to Her through my Bff Pain. It’s strong. Maybe not Forever. It is Permanent. I am satisfied to Believe in Everything In Time.

Being Anything Hurts

Being Any Thing hurts. It is easier just being. Being Anything hurts because it is like chasing an existence. Chasing an Existence is thinking Life today has more challenges than Any Time In History (ATIH). For example, it is more tough being honest today than ever before when Everybody Else has Everything Else.

For example, it is more tough being nice today than ever before when you are very sick and Everybody Else has Everything Else. Including imaginary good health insurance for imaginary good doctors. Unless you are nice you can not have Any Of It (AOI) at Any Time In History (ATIH). It is hard to be nice when you are very sick.

For example, it is more difficult to be a good person today than Any Time In History (AIT) because I am some one who has no imagination and likes to pretend. I have plenty of Rathers. I would Rather be Nobody and be Alive.

Rathers can lead to being like Everything Else when Being Anything Hurts. I would Rather Believe in Everything. Rivers Running Backwards (RRB) are a part of Everything. If Believing in Rivers Running Backwards (RRB) is what it takes then I am ready to go with the flow.

Therefore it will likely be Unnecessary Trouble. That is Believing in Everything and getting Everything Else too. Having Everything Else is not Much Good without Identity. Pick the one Thing in the picture with shiny outlines different than other Things. Those are identities.

Identities can be a lot of Unnecessary Trouble with misplaced Analysis. I forget if Induction is going forward and Deduction is going backward. You will never know without Emotional Intelligence. These are the old brains built to survive. Identity is Elemental. Behavior is Simple.

Identities fill up the Space that is not Space between Heaven and Earth. Filling up is not easy. This is difficulty. Difficulty does not have much Meaning with out Time. At Home in Real Life Situations Difficulty may endure in Time. This is not a problem. This is Meaning.

Meaning is not Much Good without Knowledge. Here’s the rub in the House That Jack Build. Without Identity Knowledge is not Knowledge that is not Knowledge. It is not confusing. Things that are not Things speak for themselves when Being Anything Hurts. Deep Listening Techniques require Being Alive.

It seems like Everybody Else without a Brain Injury has Identity Problems.

Sardonios

There is not much to be gained making Everybody Else do Some Thing Else they don’t want to do. Even if it is the right Thing that is not a Thing which it never is. It did not work with me.

Movement beyond danger Some Times requires action. Some Times Zorro must chase villains from the doors of burning barns to carry you to safety. Heroes are about that.

Some of us are Just Regular Workers (JRW). Everybody Else likes to think they are Just Regular Workers, too. Except Everybody Else always wants to be in charge. It’s okay. It makes it easier for Just Regular Workers while Everybody Else is busy being in charge.

Difficulty is filling up. This can be expensive. You make better Time with less Stops. Things are more continuous. My bff Pain is my favorite work out buddy. I have endured his presence. We have wrasseled for my Life. I am Alive.

My Mother explained favorites like this. When your heart is full there are not favorites. There is more room for love. I did not remember that until now. My Mother had a lot of Emotional Intelligence. Anything can be dangerous in excess.

When your heart is full and you have wrasseled your bff Pain for your life it is not necessary to make Everybody Else do Any Thing they don’t want to do. Some kinds of strength are very strong. Week 21. Seventy Three Weeks to Go on the Port Gamble – Talkeetna Trail.

Imagine Any Thing

When my eyes are closed I can pretend Any Thing I want. Technically Pretense and Imagination are different. Technicalities are for eagle scouts. I earned my badges from Rocky Mountain subsistence farmers in Canada. Deep down Americans think Canadians are more pure. Quakers and Dukaboors come close.

Technically I’m American. There are pieces of me Every Where. I’d Imagine I am close to the Eternal, too. Everybody Else thinks you need an imagination to pretend. I see people pretend every day and they have no imagination.

End Week 24. End week one four days solid training in PT. My metabolism has shifted. My legs will burn before my lungs cry for mercy. I look at a sandhill. Before my body says I don’t think so my mind says okay. I am exhausted different. With a reserve. I am getting Ready.

Yesterday five minutes versaclimber. 12/8/4 pull ups. Bff pain camped out in my jaw. Shoulder back to 80%. Exchanged jacket for snowshoes. Easier to wear extra shirts than swim in snow. An unrelenting week and I showed all four days.

Feeling courageous after stepping on the tail of a tiger is step one of Approach and Contemplation. Consistent routine. Noh drama. Imagine what could come next. Under the Blue Sky of Heaven it is enough to be Alive.

Ambiguity

I don’t know if they’re talking about Natasha or the snake. Neither deserves capital punishment for posing nude. When things that are not Things are small it is tough to tell the difference between what is natural and modest and what is not. The difference in Some Thing bigger is what it eats. A balanced Spiritual Diet Means Everything.

Everybody Else says that kind of ambiguity leads to criminal behavior eventually. I think they’re just exploring what snakes and Human Animals do naturally. No shame in that probably.